How amazing our wonderful God is! He is the Giver of Life, the Creator, Sustainer, Healer and coming King!
There are so many ways I see Him in His word and now more than ever, experientially. It was 2 years ago today that Troy rushed me to the emergency room with a total blockage. Of course we were in shock as I prepared mentally to head into surgery not knowing how bad my cancer would be. Christmas was so bittersweet as I wondered if stage IV colon cancer meant that would be my last christmas with my family.
My first visit to the oncologist was definitely sobering. One month after that first big operation I was disappointed to learn that the median survival for a stage IV colon cancer patient was 9 months…and the “good news” was with Avastin ( a chemotherapy drug I only got 4 treatments of) you could hope for 22 months. That was a tough day.
But God gives more grace! When it is easier to fear than to trust, when it is physically difficult and consequently mentally challenging to hope, when every hurdle seems to have another one beyond it…God is still sovereign. He is still faithful to His word. He is still able. His steadfast love endures forever. The challenge for me is to stop looking at the circumstance and to grip tightly to the One who is all the above and so much more! He alone truly satisfies and wants to be our delight. And when He is, we can have joy in hard things and know we have all we need when He is our portion.
Unbelievably to statistics keepers, I am about to celebrate Christmas 2 years later. It is hard to express the blessings God has given our family through this hard road. They are too many to list here. It truly is a miracle that this trial drug I am on seems to work for the colon cancer patients with Lynch syndrome. It is a miracle how God has provided for our travel to Houston through Troy’s work, generosity of friends, family, our life group at church and Corporate Angel Flight. It is a miracle that I got one of the few spots to be in this trial with only 98 people in it worldwide. It is a miracle that He makes it possible for me to be able to be at Bible Study Fellowship almost every week and continue to feast on His word. It is a miracle that He lays us on the hearts of praying people at just the right time. It is a miracle that my cancer has appeared to have stopped growing and my tumor markers are below the normal line since starting this trial in late January of this year.
We prepare to travel to MD Anderson for my next scan this coming week. My scan will be Dec. 22nd and we will get results and hopefully more treatments Dec. 23rd. The apprehension that comes with CT scans is difficult to avoid, but we are praying and anticipating that God is healing me and hopefully this scan will show it. The last scan showed that the vascularity to my tumors had changed dramatically…for the better. What a blessing to be on this amazing immunotherapy drug with very few side effects! Even so, God is the One who has carried us through so far!
As we all are making and shopping for just the right gifts for everyone on our Christmas list, it is hard not to get carried away with it all. God is the best gift giver, isn’t He? God is the giver of every good thing. He gave the world the perfect gift to never be exceeded. All we have to do is accept this precious gift. We have it all when we have Jesus as our Savior. Beyond that, when we are His, He continues to give us Himself as we walk with Him. He gives us so many good things out of the overflow of His love for us, including time. Every day with Him is a gift and so is every Christmas!
God bless you this Christmas with life, hope and healing in Him!
“Every good and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.” James 1:17